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MY WORLD
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05092018 Ashleigh Graduation

Sunday, March 05, 2023

20230305, Second Round

 The temperatures that got displaced,
you know you only brush me up with tears of pain, 
I wish it didn't have to be that way.

I think you were a dream, not that tomorrow is as big as yesterday's thoughts.

I want to let go of theis [sic] pain in my heart, but I continue to breath you in, through my guitar.

I only wanted to touch your soul, and now I dream of another day.  

Temperatures that got displaced.

The temperatures that got displaced,
you know you only brush me up with tears of pain, 
I wish it didn't have to be that way.


20230305 thoughts fleeting floating spitting spraying falling clogging blocking the thoughts

 I think when doors are close where airways should flow, is a bad thing.
Talking over someone is not how you get to know "them" enough for "them" to care about you!

Advise to a friend, was to write.  Daily, write.  I've forgotten what that is like.  zip that lip..

a COPY OF THE FULL OBIT IS NOW FLOATING IN SPACE, like that flame that flickers as the the breeze blows the mindless chatter...    

its breath boughs.

You're from a world apart. Different in every way.  The strings draw you in, as if a web... strength that can be broke... strong but delicate.  

Guilty

Auto Writing:
Sorry only means one thing, you wont be there until I get back, you only brush me up with tears of pain, obligation that holds those tethered hearts tearing, tears of pain, it has to be that way!

So you move forward, only game you play, temperatures that got displaced, you only brush me up with tears of pain.  I WISH IT DIDN'T HAVE TO BE THIS WAY!

Saturday, March 04, 2023

20230304


Today, as I was scrolling through TikTok, if found an artist that I didn't think i'd ever heard before until I hear them singing Say You Wont Let Go. Demchuk.

I don't know the name of the song that was on TikTok that got me all creamy about them!?

Have you ever written your own obituary?
I work in death, and it saddens me when a whole living person is reduced to pen and paper, or type text on a screen and there is not much said about them, or nothing but a name and date from the start to end of their life! Printing Obituaries has become too uneconomical!  Sadly... 

The people inheriting should have SOMETHING to say!

Here's mine, as of today! Some names have been changed to protect the innocent.  

Andrea KVH Dixon

197*1011- 20230304

Born on Fort Carson, Colorado Springs, CO on October 11 197* to RKVance (B) and PAHVNies (L).  She came in like a lamb with little more than a sneeze.  

Her parents raised her in Colorado Springs CO with her brother RKVance until they divorced.  From then she desperately wanted to escape the sadness the enveloped her home!  She then moved to KCMO then LGMT, CO.

She attended Chamberlain Elementary, Gorman Middle, Platte County High School and graduated from Skyline Highschool.  Her freshman year in Platte City MO she started working as soon as she was legal for Sonny Hill Motors; her Junior year in high she worked for Wendys Old Fashioned Hamburgers to help raise her first born with her high school sweetheart and her paternal parents and continued attending school until she graduated.  After high school she moved on to: NeoData; Shopko; S* & S* PC nka S* P* A* & W* P.C. and worked for them 28 years January 20.

AK became pregnant at the young age of 16 and gave birth to her first born son on March 14 199*.  MMD was the savior to her young life and helped her have light in what she thought was a dark world.  They grew up together.  She married her high school sweetheart JLDixon on April 9, 199* and they had two more children, on November 2, 199* and finally February 8, 200*.  AK was often teased that LAD was her favorite.  AJD was her best friend.  They shared many loves and losses together!  

JLD and AK divorced on December 28, 200*.  She continued to meet new people to see if she could find the one that wouldn't give up on her.  She had a 7 year stint with RJN, whom she had known from her childhood, as they were PenPals from her 6th grade spring break to her sophomore year in high school. She met him visiting with D&GV's children, and while attending Alamosa High with their middle daughter, her cousin DVH.  

She then met the love of her life in 2012 and they shared a short two and a half years together until April 20, 201* when she suffered the darkest of all dark times of her life, losing the love of her life to those voices fighting in our heads! Seven months later, she met JWH who suffered through 4 years of her broken heart.  They separated when his heart was calling to his children and he needed his family and he relocated to WV!  They remained friends to the end.

As she aged and life changed she held on tight with hope for true love.  Many people touched her life and helped her learn valuable lessons.  Some hard, others a little easier.  

Andrea loved her family far and wide.  She wished she had more time with all of them!

Her greatest accomplishment were her children!

Andrea is preceded in death by per precious Grandparents ADVance; Grandfather PSHurtubise, Grandmother PJHurtubise; Aunt EKHurtubise; Uncle JRHurtubise; and precious life partner ADW.

She is survived by her parents: RKVance (Betty); PANies (Lloyd); Brothers RKVance and JLNies; three wonderful children: MMDixon (B); LADixon (E) and AJDixon (M); step Children: BMWhite (J); SNWhite; and her grandchildren: ARSampson; AARodriguez; JRodriguez; adopted family LContreras and MLGreenwood and Aunts, cousins and friends.

Light Years 20230304

 Demchuk listening:
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New life, old roads.
Flames flicker and dance in their own bright.  
Swaying, breathing, dancing in their light.
Music lifts our souls and slams our bodies.
Wishing not to be blown out, caught in the rain. 
Tears of our Mother as she's watching,
listening to the happiness, embrace the sad darkness.
Swaying in my breeze,
the flames flicker and dance in their own light.
Facing this situation, swaying in my breeze,
Dancing in their light.

2023/03/04 akd