The land of FIRE and ICE

In one of the last scenes of Forrest Gump, when forrest is talkig to the beautiful Arkasas tree, of which I do not know the kind, and I'm sure someone will tell me, where his Jenni was burried, Gump walks away and you hear the birds chirping and flapping their wings... it sends chills up my spine, everytime! It is such a warm scene, as he tells her he isn't too far away if she ever needs anything... To be tied to someone so tight like that, I one day want to open my own eyes to that fairytale.

I grew up in a military town. People came and went like the seasons. There were
those that I grew up with that stick tight in my mind, later I was the seed at the end of a gust of wind, mine landing in Northern Colorado to the sun sets and rises of fire AND ICE!

I just lost a GOOD THOUGHT! It was typed and boom gone! I guess it wasn't meant to be because it is now gone from me!

I hate that!

It was a release of pent up energy, it felt good to get it off my chest, then it ran and hid back deep inside!

Getting out of the DOG HOUSE

Photo of dog house, before the dig out!


Picture of dog house.


... again, before dig out!


In the beginning of moving junk around!


See the frame, it's been burried for three-plus years!


I believe this is the height of the dog house where it is marked, I'm 5'8".


The garage is a mess!! I really need to do some spring cleaning! I WISH THE DARNED DOOR WOULD OPEN SO I COULD CLEAN OUT THE OTHER SIDE! Need to haul a fridge away and just get rid of some STUFF!


Trying to get a picture of the house without the darned light in the back ground, but... I think it's too dark?


The Ghost of Ashleigh Present, until tomorrow, then it'll be The Ghost of Ashleigh Past.


I have a lot of junk!


The roof of the dog house opens for easy cleaning.

03102008

I've finally made some headway in the yard! Even though it will not look as luster as it did in 2003-2004, it feels good to have the leaves in piles ready to be picked up and put in their place! I still have a few more beds and some raking to do, but it's coming along!

The side yard in the back on the west is almost completely raked and put in piles. I need to get a large dumpster to haul the large yard rubble away.

I need to pay my lawn doc so they can come out and treat my yard for the goatheads that are hiding by the shed. I'm ready for my place to be my place and the to do list is getting long:

1. Paint the Garage (navy blue);
2. Replace the Garage door and track;
3. Get prices to remove and replace the concrete behind the garage and side walk up to house, concrete currently falling apart in drive. Pour a larger pad where the old tin shed is;
4. Privacy fence out back, or price tuff shed to replace old tin shed and around the garage;
5. New tuff shed on concrete pad for lawn mower and yard tools;
6. New front door, thinking wood with window at top of some kind;
7. carpet in the basement replacing family room, Luke and Matthew's rooms and closet between rooms;
8. Tile the hall in front of bathroom downstairs and laundry room;
9. Find stained glass for livigroom window facing east, same for kitchen window;
10. COMPLETE BATHROOM AND KITCHEN.

Ashleigh

"Ashleigh,"

the document starts out saying. Ashleigh is requesting that I play her in her little homework game. She plays Ms. Danzl. She plays her well! She's a good little teacher!

Miss Ashleigh, aka Ms. Danzl, said that I received a 10 out of 10 possible. But I had to retake the test because it had to be in her format. I was playing around too much waiting for her to speed up! ;-) She did VERY WELL! Now myself, not so much!

The red marks are where I should have had more space and the sentence is upside down because she demaned that I filp the page over and write my sentence on the back. I demanded that we use one whole side before flipping over!

I feel like I'm doing an ok job raising my kids and enjoying their company. I know that some of my family wouldn't like the way that I'm living my life, or the way that I'm doing what I'm doing, but I know that I'm doing my best!

I do believe that my Dad's mother wouldn't be happy in the way that I'm raising my children. I want them to be compassionate people that have love and respect for others around them. Even if they do not agree with the things that are expressed to them, or what they know is right; to view all people as people and to have respect for the diversity that surrounds them! I want them not to look down at another human being, but to have understanding of another's position in life.

My paternal family is strick in their upbringing. Pioneers following Joseph Smith, the prophet and those that follow his teachings. Something that I have ingrained in my DNA, yet whole heartedly rebel from at the same time.

My maternal family is more understanding and open to me, although very much from the sticks, laid back, following the nature of natural human-nature! Left unattended...

Do you get that? Do I?

My mother's family is where I feel most comfortable, without judgment; where my father's family, I feel like I do not live up to their par and thus feel uncomfortable in their understanding of me. When I relax and hang with my paternal family, I don't feel so outcast, but always hearing about the gospel and being eternally sealed to the family... I'm just not there. I can see them there, but no myself!